Back to HOMETOWN: Day 2

Challenges:
1. How to get Birth. Cert. for passport?
My mum is holding birth. cert. of everyone no matter how old are you or how mature are you.
2. How to go outstation?
Tested water. Even Taiwan cannot go. What to do? Only God can do this job.
3. The spirit of family is getting negative. Only father is quite strong to his own.
The "sa dan" spirit is getting stronger. I should be stronger to defeat him! stupid sa dan! Hmm! My God is stronger! Who scare you!

Blessings:
1. Wrote a letter to Uncle John's family.
To appreciate them and their life besides always hosting me.
2. Bought chocolate for mum and aunties.
To appreciate their life.
3. Received not bad result!
Praise To The LORD! Hallelujah! Better than previous few times!
4. Helped in house chords.
Washing plates, open gates, hang up baju and fold baju. COntinue to discipline!
5. Equip!
News, Books! BiBLE.

Pray:
1. Strong in Spirit! Spiritual warfare!
2. Overcome all barriers at home! Make a difference!
3. Win all wars! Joshua!
4. Click with God!
5. Discipline Jaya!
6. Open up the gates of hearts of family!

Back to HOMETOWN: Day 1

Dearest blog,
sorry for ignoring you for such a long time. Here I wanna update something. I was considering where should I write.. notebook or blog.. Hmm.. to be environment friendly, better write in here la! Hehe..

Before I started leaving Parit Raja, I learnt two lessons:
1. Be decisive.
My leader said a visionary man should be quick in deciding. Fast to identify and analyze! (Amen)
2. Updated in everything including News
Remember when I'm reading books of missionaries (William Carey, David Livingstone), they learn everything they can and keep on update themselves. This is God's man! (Amen)

Counting God's blessing:
1. Saw a visitor (Ah Lian)
He told KY that he saw us. Thou it's simple and normal but I felt grateful for that!
2. Mama brought us to airport
THis one should be careful. We should pay every price for every blessing for not take for granted. It is a blessing got someone faithfully giving time, energy and money to fetch us to airport.
3. Enjoy the time to spend with Alix and Sunny.
We get to have fun together thou it's just a simple fellowship.
4. Reminded to buy bread and water.
Able to fill my stomach before flight and will not thirst out when travel.
5. Get sick.
I was totally dizzy and nearly want to vomit out on the plane. I prayed and sing praise that after get off plane, go to toilet baru vomit. haha! Then, I fall asleep. When I realize the plane landed, I really feel better and know that surely I can tahan till go to toilet. Tihihi...
6. I was healed after a night!
Hehe.. I vomitted a lot in a coffee shop, like pipe. Then faint on bed after get back home. Next day, HUHA!!!
7. Read David Livingstone
I was greatly inspired by his life! There is no easy way to fulfill God's will, to glorify God. Only through HARD WORK, WISE in LIVING, READING and FEAR GOD!

So, let's fight and conquer with fruitful HOLIDAY!

John 11:16

When I'm weak, I'm strong!

He's there for me.
When I'm alone, I'm not lonely!
He's there for me.

You speak to me...
"Dear, It's ok. You are not weak for I'm with you... I will guide you..."
"Dear, It's ok. I gave my Only Son to you. He is your Best Friend..."

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When I'm sad, He knows!
He's there for me.
When I need friend, He gives!
Jesus is with me!

You speak to me...
"Dear, It's ok. I know your pain. It's in me as well..."
"Dear, It's ok. You always had a buddy(Jesus) who know you so much well and support you..."
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When I'm afraid, I was comforted!

His Spirit is there for me.
When I'm helpless, I was strengthened!
He covers me with His wings.
You speak to me...
"Dear, It's ok. Don't be afraid. Your Father is here... You can..."
"Dear, It's ok. I love you no matter what. Don't be upset because of the fails..."

Oh God... How wonderful are you... How I wanna praise you like David...
You are the God who know me well.. My joy, sadness, pain and so on...
Undeniable... You are my Great God! Undeniable.. Nothing can hide from You...
You are The Jesus who accepts all the weaknesses of human...
We are not worthy... We are not deserved...
Your Love... Your Mercy... Your Grace...
Let Your Power dwell in me... The people need You... I need You...
I'm desire to love the people as how You love 'em... It's so Great and Mighty...

Take a break

Take a break, take a kitkat!

Haha...I feel so sukahati this week. Feel like on vacation jek~
But still have homework to do...
Haha.. don't know how to work it out actually. What will it be after the break...


Dear Daddy...
I know that if I don't breakthrough, my sheep can't too...
You don't want to see that, right? Me too... hehe...
So, I need you. I need your help. Can? can?
Just like the promise we made during last day of MNC...
So, let us strive together again...
... ... ... ... (whisphering...)

Your daughter who MAD for You...

Down!

Ha... One man down...

I was defeated.

Through someone...

This is not embarrassing

but I was filled with sorrow...

I do not wanna point finger at her but I was deeply hurt.

I swallow all the hurts in my deepest. Only God knows...

It makes me fade out. Not giving out but...

it's just like breaking up with your lover.

I was told that I am wrong... I was told that I do not understand... I was told that I hurt her...

All the way long... I do not see anyone...

Anyone with me all the way...

I know Dad is here... Why I can't get strength from you.

I seek no peace and joy in you.

I want Your encouragement so much...

I want your hug so much...

It's so painful...

Seems I'm wrong... Yeah.. This is what I hope but why it hurts so much...

There is too much to say... In a way, it builds doubts in me...